Hello? Echo!

Hey everyone...hope everyone is doing great! It's been a long looong time since I posted. So let's recap. I had my tummy tuck, can you believe I have not healed? What? It's been 10 weeks or so. My belly looks fantastic, like I never had a child but it feels like I'm wearing underwear 4 sizes too tight! I had my boobs lifted and they look happy again! My bells palsy is slowly recovering I'm almost symetrical again! Woop!

My mom got baptized today, she's 73. Her religion has divided the family into three. The religious nuts, the heathens, and me. I am a religious heathen. It's a sad situation, as I left the house to go see my mom become "one of them" officially there was great sorrow in my heart. It was harder to go there than to go to my dad's funeral. Of course my dad was only a father by title only. My mom looked very happy as she walked out of the water and I was glad to see all of the family was there to support her heathens and all.

My social life has been awkward. My close friend has detoxed from pain killers and has found a job but has remained disatisfied. My other close friend is chronically ill and is gainfully employed but is chronically disatisfied. My closest friend has everything a person could want and still is disatisfied with her life. Why? Are we ever satisfied?

Some good/bad news came to me a short bit ago. I was at risk for losing what I worked for very hard. It turns out I only loose it in some places and only for a year if I follow the rules and I pay a fine. It's not an ideal situation BUT it is better than what I thought would happen. It still is a blow to my self worth since it will be public knowledge. It truly has to rain before one can appreciate the sunshine.

So anyway that is the catch up!

Guess what?!? I'm back at the gym after the surgery and am lifting and on the cardio machines! :) I'm going to try a fun walk/run 2k on June 6th for a good cause "eliminating racism".

The juggling act...take 2

Doing laundry, organizing the pantry, sweeping the floor, planning and cooking dinner, spending time with my four year old, having time to blog about spending time with my four year old, coloring with her, is so very nice. These are moments that I don't get to do very often because I'm either stuck doing homework, something that I'm resenting more and more as the semester goes on, or I'm at work dealing with an administration that doesn't care about the patients much less about their staff and being there I resent a whole lot, although the people I work with make it tolerable and worthwhile and the patients well, God bless them, that's why we all get up in the morning. Anyway, these past few days that I have had with my children and my guy have made me re re re re evaluate my priorities. I don't have to work with the mad fury that I have been, granted we want to get out of debt sooner rather than later, of course I want new flooring, and new dishes, a new couch would be nice too, plus I enjoy going out to dinner often, Botox, waxing, manicures, pedicures, designer purses and shoes are nice but not necessities and I can do with out for a little more time with my kids and my dude...I am scheduled to have a tummy tuck in January and have been putting money down on it, so I guess I need to make payments...hmmm

Honestly, I'm not even sure I want my masters degree just now, plus I'm under a great deal of pressure to find my own clinical site and to complete the program by 2011 because it's the last cohort for my university. Sigh. I'm not even sure I want to get my degree in this specialty. I sure hope it is only a phase.