Thursday, May 27, 2010


Last night on The Real Housewives of new York City Kelly showed a side of herself that was a little odd. This is her second  season and she's been teased light hearted for being in "Kelly's world". I kinda took it as things not phasing her maybe she was above it and didn't want to get involved. Although she's never been my favorite housewives (she's not even a wife btw)  I could identify with her aloofness and some of of her quirks.
However, last night Kelly went from quirky to lost my marbles at recess, and in all honesty it wasn't pleasant to watch...not even on T.V. It was uncomfortable! Obviously, I don't know her personally but in some weird way I kinda relate to her. I don't know if what happened on that show was medically induced but her behavior was either very good acting ( I so much doubt!) or some sort of manic delusion of bipolar disorder. That I can relate to all to well. Seeing her skip away into the hallway gave me the creeps and felt truly sorry for the women who were trying to understand what was happening to their dinner guest. OMG I have so much to atone for as I put my family though hell for many years. Seeing a stranger on TV! was so uncomfortable can't imagine seeing a loved one go bananas up close and personal.
Can't wait to see what happens next. I hope she seeks the help she needs.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Little tummy BIG hunger!

So now I'm semi looking decent. I'm starting to work out again ( I walked/jogged this morning in preperation for June 5th 5k).
Honestly, I am always HUNGRY! I sit here typing and am dreaming of a bag of Rese's PB cups, pie, anything unhealthy while I have a fridge full of healthy stuff.
How does one become an overeater in control or in recovery? A recovered overeater? Is there such a thing? An alcoholic stops drinking but a person cannot stop eating. It's a control thing but then that becomes a disorder like anorexia or bullimia or am I taking this to extremes? possibly.

Any who. I might be exagerating but I'm not sure. I do snack a lot though. I might need a schedule. kinda like babies, or Pavlo's dog. Ding-time to eat!
Food continues to bring people together and bring happiness to us!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Hello? Echo!

Hey everyone...hope everyone is doing great! It's been a long looong time since I posted. So let's recap. I had my tummy tuck, can you believe I have not healed? What? It's been 10 weeks or so. My belly looks fantastic, like I never had a child but it feels like I'm wearing underwear 4 sizes too tight! I had my boobs lifted and they look happy again! My bells palsy is slowly recovering I'm almost symetrical again! Woop!

My mom got baptized today, she's 73. Her religion has divided the family into three. The religious nuts, the heathens, and me. I am a religious heathen. It's a sad situation, as I left the house to go see my mom become "one of them" officially there was great sorrow in my heart. It was harder to go there than to go to my dad's funeral. Of course my dad was only a father by title only. My mom looked very happy as she walked out of the water and I was glad to see all of the family was there to support her heathens and all.

My social life has been awkward. My close friend has detoxed from pain killers and has found a job but has remained disatisfied. My other close friend is chronically ill and is gainfully employed but is chronically disatisfied. My closest friend has everything a person could want and still is disatisfied with her life. Why? Are we ever satisfied?

Some good/bad news came to me a short bit ago. I was at risk for losing what I worked for very hard. It turns out I only loose it in some places and only for a year if I follow the rules and I pay a fine. It's not an ideal situation BUT it is better than what I thought would happen. It still is a blow to my self worth since it will be public knowledge. It truly has to rain before one can appreciate the sunshine.

So anyway that is the catch up!

Guess what?!? I'm back at the gym after the surgery and am lifting and on the cardio machines! :) I'm going to try a fun walk/run 2k on June 6th for a good cause "eliminating racism".